I'm not completely sure I understand what the implications of moving to Singapore exactly are, but I wanted to do it because I wanted to start something new. I was pretty content living in Thailand but I still wanted to try working abroad and getting out of my comfort zone. No matter what, I think it's good that I moved here. The thrill of moving to a new country still hasn't faded since I was young and although there were some hurdles in the way once I moved here, I think the dusts are settling and I'm beginning to enjoy what life there is to offer here.
I think inside, and sometimes vocally, I grumbled a lot about how things were in the beginning. Like how people are rude and annoying, or how the real estate agents are useless, or how the standards they supposedly set and are so proud of are actually in reality so not practical and a hindrance to getting things done, and not to mention that things are overly expensive here. But I don't know, I guess in the end I just don't want to be that person who complains about it. Sure, I complain still if pens and notebooks aren't completely lined up straight, or if there's paper littered around a table and not stacked up neatly, or if the the plastic bag in the trash can isn't put properly, or if there's clothes hangars hung up outside gathering dust, but I don't want to complain about the bigger things.
My life is here now. And I want to make the most out of it. I want to meet new people, make new friends, experience new things, take up new lessons, and just live and be real to myself and others.
Since last year I had this motto about creating a world I wanted to fall madly in love with, well this year my motto is about just being real. Real in being more expressive about how I feel, real about how I want to live, and what I want to say. I want people to fall in love with the real me, the person who you get to know many months or years later and can put up with, not that person who you meet for a few days and think she's so confident, talkative and friendly. The person everybody likes.
I do love the world I'm living in now, at least much better than two years ago.
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