I told myself since I came back from France that I'm going to find some time to really sit down and write about stuff. I guess in a way I wanted to do this and reflect on things just because. Not that I think it's so important, or maybe it was, or is, but I think that at the very least, maybe if I begin to reflect a bit, I'd provide myself with some clarity.

It's getting really hard for me to actually write down my real thoughts here. One obvious reason being that this blog really isn't that private any more. The second reason being that my thoughts to write about something seemingly disappear when I reach home. I have plenty of ideas driving around town. I somehow wish there was a machine that records your thoughts verbatim and transmits them to the blog. Then maybe you'll see more frequent updates and less general topics about my obsessions (food and gym). I find that the only time where I can really sit down and put words together is at work. But I hardly want to spend time at work blogging now since there's tons to do or because I feel bad doing non-work related stuff.

Still, I think it's important that I sit down and write for my own sake. Maybe I'll find some time soon.

The Exception to the Rule

On the plane from Abu Dhabi to Bangkok I watched the movie, He's Just Not That Into You. I heard that it was a pretty crappy movie but there was nothing else to do so I was like, OKAY, why not.

But you know what. I actually liked it. I thought it was really sweet and funny. There were so many nice quotes in there too. For example:

"if a guy treats you like he doesn’t give a s--- it’s because he doesn’t give a s---.”

"Don’t get tricked into asking him out. If he likes you, he’ll do the asking."

"If you can find him, then he can find you. If he wants to find you, he will."

"girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up: if a boy punches you he likes you, never try to trim your own bangs, and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. every movie we see, every story we're told implores us to wait for it: the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. but sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. how to tell the ones who want us from the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. and maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. maybe the happy ending is just moving on. or maybe the happy ending is this: knowing after all the unreturned phone calls and broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment... you never gave up hope."

I want to write more on this but I'm off to the gym now. So maybe later.

Dinner

For the past three days since I came back from France I've been eating various types of crackers and biscuits for dinner topped with random things like tomato and onion spreads, chestnut spread, fois gras, saucisson, chorizo, cheddar cheese or camembert cheese.

And then on the side I snack on dates and figs.

The best thing about England was how I discovered oatcakes. They're so yummy although most people would probably think they're dry and taste like cardboard.

I brought a lot of biscuits back.

Jung's Personality Type Test

I got the INFJ type, which rates me as being:

Introverted: 22%
Intuitive: 62%
Feeling: 25%
Judging: 55%

Take the test here to see what type you are.

This is what INFJ are like, which I found quite true.

The Protector

As an INFJ, your primary mode of living is focused internally, where you take things in primarily via intuition. Your secondary mode is external, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit with your personal value system.

INFJs are gentle, caring, complex and highly intuitive individuals. Artistic and creative, they live in a world of hidden meanings and possibilities. Only one percent of the population has an INFJ Personality Type, making it the most rare of all the types.

INFJs place great importance on havings things orderly and systematic in their outer world. They put a lot of energy into identifying the best system for getting things done, and constantly define and re-define the priorities in their lives. On the other hand, INFJs operate within themselves on an intuitive basis which is entirely spontaneous. They know things intuitively, without being able to pinpoint why, and without detailed knowledge of the subject at hand. They are usually right, and they usually know it. Consequently, INFJs put a tremendous amount of faith into their instincts and intuitions. This is something of a conflict between the inner and outer worlds, and may result in the INFJ not being as organized as other Judging types tend to be. Or we may see some signs of disarray in an otherwise orderly tendency, such as a consistently messy desk.

INFJs have uncanny insight into people and situations. They get "feelings" about things and intuitively understand them. As an extreme example, some INFJs report experiences of a psychic nature, such as getting strong feelings about there being a problem with a loved one, and discovering later that they were in a car accident. This is the sort of thing that other types may scorn and scoff at, and the INFJ themself does not really understand their intuition at a level which can be verbalized. Consequently, most INFJs are protective of their inner selves, sharing only what they choose to share when they choose to share it. They are deep, complex individuals, who are quite private and typically difficult to understand. INFJs hold back part of themselves, and can be secretive.

But the INFJ is as genuinely warm as they are complex. INFJs hold a special place in the heart of people who they are close to, who are able to see their special gifts and depth of caring. INFJs are concerned for people's feelings, and try to be gentle to avoid hurting anyone. They are very sensitive to conflict, and cannot tolerate it very well. Situations which are charged with conflict may drive the normally peaceful INFJ into a state of agitation or charged anger. They may tend to internalize conflict into their bodies, and experience health problems when under a lot of stress.

Because the INFJ has such strong intuitive capabilities, they trust their own instincts above all else. This may result in an INFJ stubborness and tendency to ignore other people's opinions. They believe that they're right. On the other hand, INFJ is a perfectionist who doubts that they are living up to their full potential. INFJs are rarely at complete peace with themselves - there's always something else they should be doing to improve themselves and the world around them. They believe in constant growth, and don't often take time to revel in their accomplishments. They have strong value systems, and need to live their lives in accordance with what they feel is right. In deference to the Feeling aspect of their personalities, INFJs are in some ways gentle and easy going. Conversely, they have very high expectations of themselves, and frequently of their families. They don't believe in compromising their ideals.

INFJ is a natural nurturer; patient, devoted and protective. They make loving parents and usually have strong bonds with their offspring. They have high expectations of their children, and push them to be the best that they can be. This can sometimes manifest itself in the INFJ being hard-nosed and stubborn. But generally, children of an INFJ get devoted and sincere parental guidance, combined with deep caring.

In the workplace, the INFJ usually shows up in areas where they can be creative and somewhat independent. They have a natural affinity for art, and many excel in the sciences, where they make use of their intuition. INFJs can also be found in service-oriented professions. They are not good at dealing with minutia or very detailed tasks. The INFJ will either avoid such things, or else go to the other extreme and become enveloped in the details to the extent that they can no longer see the big picture. An INFJ who has gone the route of becoming meticulous about details may be highly critical of other individuals who are not.

The INFJ individual is gifted in ways that other types are not. Life is not necessarily easy for the INFJ, but they are capable of great depth of feeling and personal achievement.

Jungian functional preference ordering:

Dominant: Introverted Intuition
Auxilliary: Extraverted Feeling
Tertiary: Introverted Thinking
Inferior: Extraverted Sensing