Falling Back Into Old Habits

Was stuck in traffic for two hours yesterday evening. It was so annoying. Apparently a lot of companies allowed their staff to leave work early because of the possible military confrontation with the PAD at the airport last night.

I keep falling back into old habits.

I sabotage my own relationship when there's nothing wrong.

I say nothing when there's something wrong written all over my face.

I cry for reasons which I can't explain verbally.

I become moody when I feel sad, not good enough and umimportant.

I start acting cold, falling behind a wall.

I think, eventually, you'll leave too.

But I'm breaking that habit.

Because you're important.

And I will not let you leave me.

Lipomas

I think I got lipomas.... sounds dreadful 'eh?

Bangkok Airports Shut Down

The airports in Thailand are still closed. My boss who was suppose to come back on Wednesday had to land in Hong Kong for the night. Now she was flown back to Japan. My other boss is stuck in the Phillippines.

I hope this doesn't change my plans of going to France in December.

Really Random Notes

Malaysia's really nice. Very organized and clean. I only saw KL but I like what I saw although the entire trip I was in my hotel room and its vicinity. I only saw the Petronas Twin Tower from my hotel window!

The international airport is almost an hour away from KL.

Durians in Malaysia are puny. Some pictures of the trip will be on Facebook. The food there is great!

It's November 24th...

I have a lot of work to do.

I got my car back (unfixed). Currently waiting (patiently) for my turn to fix it at the service center.

Might be going to Pattaya this weekend.

I need gingko baloba.

Pisces

"Make no mistake about it: This is one of your best months of the year. Even if you should "lose" something you think you need materially, spiritually, or emotionally, or have a parting of the ways with a person you used to care about, later you will see the wisdom in the universe.

If you find you have to give something up, doing so will only free you to have something far better. Uranus in Pisces is stirring up fierce need within you to break old restraints and to truly become the person you were born to be. Your need to express artistic and creative ideas has never been stronger."

... believing?

Halfway There

It's almost mid-November. The weather's much cooler. Another noticeable change. I'm going to Malaysia next week. I've never been to Malaysia, but for me, Malaysia somehow is a place of past promises that were meant to happen but never happened. It's going to be bittersweet there.

Happy Loy Krathong.

I called my dad yesterday and told him about Nick. Kind of. I said I wanted them to meet Nick. My dad sounded surprisingly normal. We're having dinner on Sunday, I think. I'm excited and happy about this. I really want them to like Nick. But I know they'll be happy as long as I'm happy.

I called Mai this morning and said hello. It's been a while.

I really like this weather. Changes are still happening. My heart's a lot more still.

My friend from work went to see that fortune teller I went to. It was damn accurate I got goosebumps.

I bought this Light Blue perfume by Dolce & Gabbana. I really like it. I still miss the smell of that Lacoste cologne. It's still my favorite. Ever since New York.

What Does Moving On Mean To You?

Is it different from Moving Forward?

I'll Be Waiting

Lenny Kravitz

He broke your heart
He took your soul
You hurt inside
'Cause there's a hole

You need some time
To be alone
Then you will find
What you've always known

I'm the one who really loves you baby
I've been knocking at your door

As long as I'm living
I'll be waiting
As long as I'm breathing
I'll be there
Whenever you call me
I'll be waiting
Whenever you need me
I'll be there

I've seen you cry
Into the night
I feel your pain
Can I make it right
I realize there's no end in sight
Yet still I wait
For you to see the light

I'm the one who really loves you baby
I can't take it anymore

As long as I'm living
I'll be waiting
As long as I'm breathing
I'll be there
Whenever you call me
I'll be waiting
Whenever you need me
I'll be there

You are the only one
I've ever known
That makes me feel this way
Girl you are my own
I want to be with you
Until we're old
You've got the love you need right in front of you
Please come home

As long as I'm living
I'll be waiting
As long as I'm breathing
I'll be there
Whenever you call me
I'll be waiting
Whenever you need me
I'll be there...

Hmmmm....

This is way too coincidental. Three banks already called me this morning about insurance. All on the same day? WTF...

So What Did You Choose

Whatever happened now may require a decision - to go, to stay, to fix, or to delve deeper. The answer lies in your heart.

Cooking

Mom's telling me to go take cooking classes.

Hmm.. I might.

Why not right?

Anybody know any good schools?

Horoscope

So accurate :P

http://www.astrologyzone.com/forecasts/monthly/pisces_full.php

Life is just too exciting!

Go read yours!

Malaysia

Off to Malaysia for a meeting this month from Nov 19-21 but will probably stay an extra two days and come back on the 23rd. Can't wait!

It's unbelievable how much travelling I'm doing. The fortune teller was right on about this one at least.

My Room

Moved into my own place Saturday. It's just a studio on Ratchada but I really like it. My place will be really near my parents so they're happy about it. I almost couldn't fit my massive bookshelf also because the movers thought it was too tall and was about to saw the topmost shelf off. Fortunately, that didn't happen and my bookshelf is now sitting nicely in my room, all intact.

I really like moving though, decorating my own place and having "me" written all over my room. Anyway, I'll post up pictures of my room on facebook once I'm done unpacking and organizing it. I can imagine spending hours in my room.